One thing to note, I don’t know for a fact if RU is suicidal or not, that was based off of anecdotal experience and some other input from experienced users a few years ago. But regardless, even if it went systemic and somehow permanently reduced serum concentrations of any particular hormone, any reduction in androgens, DHT, whatever it is could be replaced synthetically with ease (. loading some Proviron for PFS). I remember looking at your blood work before. You were like 8 points off of clinically diagnosed low Testosterone levels. That is more likely than not the root of your issue, perhaps coupled with a very negative reaction to Anti-Androgens. Most high-end RU58841 vendors are pushing 100+ orders per day of RU58841. That builds up to tens of thousands of users over the years (if not over 100k). I had over 100,000 views between my RU58841 videos before YouTube censored my channel. I literally had never heard from anyone with a case like yours, and that’s from thousands of people who had visited my page, and the hundreds that messaged me their personal experiences.